While Yuanhan is writing about serious stuff like her future, all that occupies my immature mind now is touch.

Today I had lessons from 8-4 straight and I must admit that 60% of that time was spent zoning out. I involuntarily spent so much time reliving the precious moments I spent on the field with my touch team and I know from the moment it happened that I am suffering from a serious case of touch-withdrawal. Jiawen asserts that it's probably because it all happened so fast and it ended too abruptly for me to come to terms with it and I think it made sense. In any case, I cannot concentrate on anything I am supposed to do and so I decided to do this long entry to get my life back in order.

Yesterday's touch game went well. It might sound weird coming from this ambitious persons who wants to do well and win in everything, seeing as RH came in 4th, but well, I thought back and I cant make myself feel otherwise. We lost 3 games, won 2 games, but we played hard and we played well. From my perspective.

A few moments during the game that kept coming to my mind. When Beeps caught the man I lost in the match against EH. When the TH wing tried to cut pass me and I almost lost her but managed to corner her in the end. When I scored my first try that counts against SH after tabby passed me a long ball. When the Jacqueline from KR pulled me in by calling a switch but faked me and ran past me instead. AND she scored.

These moments kept playing in my head and each was significant in some way. The last was most notable because I really came to terms with it. I kept thinking, was there any way or anything I could have done to make it different. The answer was no. I am a prideful person, and this is something that's not easy for me to admit. I would have been drawn in anyway. But having said that, I do have to add that I feel no regrets. Not much, throughout the whole process of learning and playing touch. During dinner yesterday, Tabby asked me a question and I have yet to give her an answer. She asked me how I felt the game was. If I had any regrets? My answer is no. No regrets.

Some of the team were disappointed with the results or themselves. At the end I concluded saying "Dont think about what we failed to achieve, think instead about how far we came." As a team I think we became much closer. And I guess thats what important to me. And as coach always says, thats what touch is about isnt it. the team and having fun, learning together being more important than placing and winning. In the end I probably internalised this way of thought that I ended up feeling that yesterday's game went well even though we got 4th.

At this point I need to thank my teammates. Also, to Joy for being such an awesome captain and making me feel part of the team so much. If you still have any complex about yourself being a bad captain or thinking that you didnt do a good job as a captain, think about us playing running man, police and thief the night immediately after comps and know that these crazy moments can happen only because we're close friends and you brought us together. You'll probably get your own conclusion about how you formed a team and made things work out in the end.

I really enjoyed playing touch with you people. And even considering all the bad moments and sorry feeling I had, I think it still adds up to be a beautiful picture. IHG may be over, but let's still play touch sometimes shall we? And really, I <3 my Touch Team.

I am done with my exams. Apparently. Now a new life awaits me. And I kinda regret arranging to work at NY immediately after my exams. Now I dont have every day to slack and play with my squadmates. But. A promise is a promise. There are nice things out there waiting for me.

Maple, now.

Since I first shifted into hall, I must say that I slept the best last night. Good sleep isnt defined by the number of hours but the quality of the sleep. I napped from 1130 to 0130 and woke up to watch my webcast lecture, went back to sleep at 0240 and slept till 0800. Was interrupted and it wasnt exactly alot of hours compared to my usual 10 hours sleep, but I woke feeling rejuvenated and well, had a different perspective of the world. I feel good.

Even though I am lagging in my school work by quite alot, I woke up feeling good enough to tackle life and all the nonsense its going to throw at me. So I will survive! :D

PC1431 midterms just ended. And on that, I dunno what to say. I dont think I did too badly. Not as bad as math. But I didnt do extremely well either. And to Jinqing, 20/20, 19/20 and 18/20, doesnt look too optimistic now. I couldnt do exactly 5 out of the 20 questions. Maybe I shouldnt say couldnt do. I probably should say I didnt have enough time to think through throughly how to approach the question. I guessed all 5.

This was what happened and how I did it. When I meet a question that I have problems approaching, I spent some time, think through, skip, and left the option blank. Then I move on. When I reached the last 4 minutes, I went back looking for the empty ones and I almost left out 2 blanks OMFG. I hope I did fill in all the blanks in the end cos I was frantic when he said stop writing but i continued shading anyway. But I didnt shade smartly. I shaded whatever I felt like shading. I couldnt even flip to the question and look at the options before deciding. Which was not smart at all. Which is why they shouldnt make time a factor that I have to worry about. This is so not good. I can do, I just need more time. And if I was the only one, okay I admit, maybe I stupid. When everyone is rushing to finish the paper, seriously, the time limit is stupid.

When I was last minute checking I have this deep dark feeling I may get less than my predicted 15 because I shaded everything from 15 onwards in the wrong frame. ie. 16 for 15, 17 for 16 and so on. I didnt have enough bloody time to check so I hope I didnt do such a stupid thing. Oh man, I am so stressed now.

:(

Going to study CS. After I calm down. :(

I was mugging. And then I got distracted.

0134, Jiawen's sleeping, its dark outside and I dont feel sleepy. This may mean good as I will have slightly more time to study. May also mean bad as the insomnia that haunted me yesterday may come back and haunt me again. I fell asleep at 5am yesterday. After the 2 hours of rolling around in bed, knowing you are wasting precious sleep time. --"

Am still doing math. And I feel like I wasted my recess week. Should have done alot more work but the only right thing I did was to rest enough. And I'm still not fully recovered though I am definitely much much better than I was last week.

Thinking about how recess week has ended saddens me. :(

Anyway my lower jaw feels really bruised. I have no idea why. I didnt get kicked but it hurts. This is queer.

0143, I shall go back and mug. 3 more questions.

Actually I dont feel that busy. I have in fact quite a lot of free time. So why is it that everytime someone wants to go out with me, I am not free?? Because my free time is spontaneous.
See, I am free on monday nights, tuesday nights I have tkd @ cck, wednesday nights I'm free, thursday nights I got touch rug, friday evenings 6-8 i got bball, sat morning I have tuition with yungshee, sat afternoon-evenings I got tkd at senja, sunday I got full day tuition with my cousins. That's my weekly plan. See, I'm free on monday and wednesday nights. Everybody, please look for me on mondays and wednesday nights. Why am I always not free?

Oh and I've got this NCAP Technical Course that I'm going for which will take up 3 weekends starting 1st October. This is necessary for me to become a certified TKD instructor. And it is imperative that I go. So I am not free.

:(

Whatever it is, I have managed to stop my lazy self from being too lazy and now, I have progressed with my tutorial. I'm almost done with math. Just one question which I know how to do but am too lazy to work out all the tedious steps. The time taken for me to finish that stoopid Qn 4 is sufficient for me to finish my CS1010E tutorial so I decided that I shall do it another day. For now I will finish my CS1010E tutorial. And then I must repeat that I am impressed by my ability to do this tutorial and get the program working without actually knowing whats happening in the code. I like just get something and yay it works. But I dont actually know how it worked and why it worked. But it just worked. I am such a genius man. BUT.. I still need to find out what happened in my code.

And so I shall go work on it.

Today I went to the doctor's. Like finally after coughing out so much blood. (I didnt actually cough out blood. This is figurative.) Cos Cassmain got stung by a bee. And so I brought her to see the doctor cos my mum says it might be poisonous and so we saw the doctor. I like shun bian see and he gave medicine and the medicine is damn nan chi. Its like super bitter and it leaves a lousy aftertaste in your mouth. Bleagh.

Okay I shall be off. To do CS1010E. :)

1740. Have got 10 minutes to blog before bball training. Just woke up from my 2.5 hour nap. Damn refreshing and did a damn good job to my ill body. I feel so much better now.

I spent the whole of yesterday and today feeling ill. Today more than yesterday. And yesterday I visited UHC and paid 2 dollars fifty-five cents for a full consultation with medicine. Eh $2.55 is cos I had some non-standard drug to help my inflammed throat. Then I came back, mug abit, but realised that doing EG1109 with a heavy head is simply pointless. I'd make careless mistakes everywhere and get wrong answers even with the right concept. So I gave up. Went for touch trng instead.

Touch rug training was quite fun. Did lateral passing but we failed to complete ten. Then we learnt loop which was quite okay and I got more insights on how it could be more effectively executed. At the end we played a really messy game with weining scoring most of the tries and funny joy running way past the try-line with the ball. It was really effective and in the end I think the game only served as a 'for fun' more than 'for learning'. Weining is like madness.

Today I skipped math lecture cos I really felt too ill to go anywhere. Pulled myself up at 0930 and for the first time in my hall life, skipped breakfast. Went for EG1109 consult which helped quite abit but the mugging session with Jerome and Jiahao became to tiring and in the end I went back to the pointless state. Jiahao is as ill as me, just that he got food poisoned and was vomitting and shitting away.

The EG1109 lecture I went for after that mugging session, was just !#$%%$#@!@#!!!!! I felt like I didnt learn anything cos I couldnt understand a single shit he was saying. COs my brain was too clouded and what not, and it was really too hard to process. Now I feel much better, but I should go review it after tmr.

Going for BBall training now. Hope it doesnt rain. COme back, have dinner, mug abit, sleep early. I'v got to do well for the test tmr.

Okay. 15 minutes to blog before I move on to doing my EG1109. Have a test coming up this saturday and I feel lees than prepared. There's this like extremely low multiplier for EG1109 as it was with my Bio last year. Its like you have to spend so much damn time on it for it to do just as well as another module which you can probably spend like half the time on. Yesterday I spent almost from 2300 to 0200 doing just 1.5 questions on the stupid bloody ib tutorial and I only got half the answers correct. I need to go review it. And practice.

I was so tired I took a nap just now. In fact, I sort of just woke up from my nap. I'm still thinking about what to do and write for my GEK2022 project thing. Its like I have no idea how to start and so I cant carry on for the project report. Everything feels like it hasnt settled and it isnt in place. Guess I need to spend some time thinking more in depth about stereotypes.

This morning I woke up just in time to shower and have breakfast before eveything is gone. For the first time in my hall life I think, I didnt eat toast bread cos I didnt feel like eating it. And I'm now having flu and sniffing my nose away feeling terrible. hahah. Jiawen is also rather shagged out. Oh and hahaha, yesterday I got one of the first frights of getting locked out of my room. Jiawen is so funny. She has a habit of double-locking the door and latching it before she sleeps. Usually I'd be on the inside when she does that. But last night I was mugging in RH Library and so I came back in the middle of the night (ard 2am). When I opened the locked door, I found to my horror that it was latched too! Then I tried breaking in and failed. I was desperately calling her and knocking on the door. Was so super damn worried that she wouldnt wake up and leave me outside. Lucky for me, I think the noise woke her. Hhaha. It was quite scary at 0200.

Okay tonight I'm probably gonna come back at the same time. I dont think she will forget me again bah. Hahah. :D Off to mug.

:D Last post in RH before I go home this weekend.

Today was quite fun. Had basketball training and I'm already certain that I'm gonna get muscle aches tmr morning. But if I keep this up, I am so going to slim down. Tuesday tkd, Thursday touch rug, Friday BBall. That's discounting my tkd trainings on Saturday. Wahaha. Sporty Hall life is the No.1 way for healthy slimming!

There was the Milo van at forum today. I realised, that its is not, like super not, worth it to get a cup of Milo and spill half of it on your new pair of shoes. 50 bucks for a free cup of Milo = not worth it.

I'm into mugging mode already because I have quite a few test coming up and I feel like there's a need for me to do well. Still coping fine and so I hope all things go well for me. Contemplating buying my soccer boots tmr! Hahah.

I'm still stuck at this random problem about a pulley that is not frictionless. Where does the friction come into play if both sides have the same weight? If there is friction, T1 =/= T2, but which side is greater? Seeing as Jinqing is the only one her who takes physics who is likely to see this, please respond!

Off to do my MA1505 tutorial. Meeting a few problems showing discrepancy between my answer and the answer they gave. Because it is hardly possibly for the answer to be wrong, someone(Jinqing) please help with 1d, 2c and 4b for now. Thank you very much. hahaha. When I get desperate I will sms you.

Alright, byebyee.

I was just reading the posts posted by my squadmates and then I saw Jinqing's "it's not good to have guys dominating your social circle" and I'm like "What?!" --" Who's the one who actually have guys dominating her social circle man.

Anyway this is my long break between MA1505(T) and CS1010E(T) which reminds me that I have my first presentation to do in like 2 hours and I haven't actually got anything ready other than my answers to the question. It's supposed to be a short informal presentation. If I do like ppt I feel like I'm spoiling the market. If I go with my paper and nothing else, I feel unprepared. See how worrying university life can be?

I shall decide what to do at 1500. Hahah. Which reminds me that I still need to get JieYing's book binded. I'm meeting her tomorrow at 1500 and I havent got her book binded. And I dont want to go to coronation which is where I usually go to. Hmm, anyone knows where I can get coil binding services around clementi?

Yesterday I received a really funny e-mail from the Hall Manager:

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"How to dispose sanitary pads 101‏"

Dear Residents,

Please find instructions below on how to dispose of sanitary pads:

1) Remove sanitary pads.

0) Wrap up with paper securely in plastic bags or original wrapping.

1) Place into small bins inside toilets to be disposed by cleaners.

Sensitive New Age Boys, please also follow these….really….really….really…..simple steps.

It is not very nice to leave the pads on the floor, in pails on top of washing machines, inside toilet bowls, balanced on the wall partitions, in the sinks, rubbish bins outside the toilets etc.

You will attract Dracula. He is very scary. He will trace the smell back to your room at night and in the dark, sink his fangs into the wrong part of the neck.

Him, or that snake still out there.

Please be considerate towards your Hall friends.

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I thought it was so damn funny. Oh, and I have since decided that vending machines are really evil beings. They should be re-named as 'money-sucking machines' because I have gotten a total sum of $7 cheated of me from various vending machines (including that stupid printer thing in RH) within less than a month. But it works fine for my friends and its just me. Maybe I emit some random magnetic field that causes it to want to breakdown on me. Or just that it has some weird vengeance against me.

Yesterday I had Engin Touch Rug training and Skating. Touch Rug, I didnt do much. Just played abit here and there. Then I left for skating already. But I twisted my ankle while skating and I thought it would be like really bad cos the whole ankle gave way and my skates were almost parallel to the ground with my foot in it. And I felt a pop. But lucky for me it's not too bad now. Sore but bearable.

After training I was so hardworking I washed Yinhwee's boots! Then after washing I left it out to dry and I belatedly realised that I have Hall Touch Rug Training today. I just hope that the sun will continue to shine on the partially dry boots so that I can wear it again later.

I need to buck up for my EG1109. I need to study like seriously. Why is it that when I start getting serious and want to study, I keep finding myself with less and less time to study?

Needs to do:
1. MA1505 Tutorial 3
2. PC1431 Tutorial 1
3. EG1109 Tutorial 2
4. Mastering Physics e-tutorial 1
5. Mug for EG1109 Test on 10th Sept
6. Mug for MA1505 Test which is coming soon
7. Work on GEK2022 project

Woah. I feel like A levels are coming all over again.

Shall go start doing something about this.